Welcome the Frozen Orange Society!
My name is Kristen, and I suffered from an Eating Disorder for 12+ years.
I have done the work: Inpatient Hospitalization, Residential Programs, Partial Programs, Intensive Outpatient, and team after team after team of therapists, nutritionists, psychiatrists… hypnotists, holistic doctors… blah blah you name it!
I tried EVERYTHING. I learned the art (sadly) of being a “semi-functional ED Suffer,” although that was always temporary… lasting about 3 months or so before I began isolating in my apartment for days restricting or binging and purging until I passed out. Like clockwork, it always ended up that way). I went through 100 career changes… always chasing after elephants. I made and lost a million friends… and intimate relationships? Forget it. They all sucked, because I sucked and all I deserved was a “jobless, friendless, sucky-boyfriend” kind of life.
I road that damn rollercoaster a million times.
I knew the timing until I reached the top, and I knew the plunge that followed immediately after. I knew every twist, every loop, and I knew how fast it went and how long it was. Worst of all, I knew it always ended up RIGHT BACK WHERE IT STARTED… and yet… I JUST GOT RIGHT BACK ON… over and over again.
After 10+ years something finally STRUCK ME. I hit rock bottom, I think… or maybe I was nauseous and had a headache from the stupid rollercoaster ride. Regardless, IT GOT OLD. I needed something new and I was sick of riding something that didn’t actually bring me anywhere.
I needed a new thrill, so I actually gave recovery a try, and after doing the same thing for over a decade… the thrill of recovery felt Good.
And Here I Am. I’m not going to go as far to say I am 100% “fixed.” ED Recovery is a very very very unsteady Uphill Battle.
What’s that saying? … “Fall Down 7 Times, Stand up 8”
Well, I’ve taken a good amount of steps as of now… and I’m proud to say that at this moment, I’m literally Dancing.
RECOVERY IS POSSIBLE
I AM LIVING PROOF
xoxo, Kristen R. – Founder, The Frozen Orange Society