I felt the need to write to you in effort to put you in my past. So many times before, you have ended in joy, laughter, and a restful sleep…
…but yesterday, well yesterday was different.
Last night as I tried to sleep, I thought too much about you yesterday. I FELT too much about you and it kept me from reenergizing properly today. I was angry and ashamed of my yesterday. I felt disappointed of you. After so many wonderful yesterdays, you failed me.
I spent so much time yesterday, wasted time, thinking about you yesterday. I had so many questions that had gone unanswered. Questions I pondered into late hours, dreading the overflow of disappointment into the morning. Yesterday was quite the struggle, and I hated you for the emotional beating I endured.
Last night I ran through these thoughts over and over…
- Why did I have to suffer the way I did yesterday?
- Why did this happen to me?
- What could I have done differently to avoid yesterday?
- How badly will this hurt my tomorrow?
- How do I handle tomorrow?
“How do I rid myself of Yesterday?”
Finally, due in most part to exhaustion, I subconsciously let go of these thoughts, and fell into a deep sleep.
I”t was as simple as that. You were gone.”
This morning I woke and felt the urge to write to you, for now I understand why you were so hard on me yesterday.
My realization was that not all days can be glorious. Glorious days are given as awards for overcoming obstacles. Bad yesterdays are a sign of progress. They are the new workings of betterment and success. Bad yesterdays are meant to be endured in order to earn glorious tomorrows.
So yesterday, I felt the need to write to you… to say thank you. Thank you for showing me just how much success I have had thus far. I have celebrated success and am ready for more. I know you would have never challenged me if I were not ready for the next step! Yesterday I needed to be challenged in order to reach a higher potential. I know I want to move even closer to my highest potential, and I am so glad you showed me just ho much potential I have.
A good day yesterday would have only been a sign of unreadiness… but a bad day was the drive I needed to push me further today.
Kristen – TFOS